why hello, XANGA

oh how i remember the days of writing and looking for hours and hours after school.

i miss you.

ANYWAYS... haha i wounder if anyone is looking at this? proobbbabbbly not!! bc this is a dead zone!!!

well.. life has deffinitly had its turns recently... kind of crazy because im so in love but it's all changed...

butt ya know... i can't see my future.. it may change right back

who knows?

AHH!!! schoool!!!! WHYY?

geeze la weeeze... how am i already a junior?

i dont want to turn 17.. i'm going to stay 16 forever.. it's the BEST age

goodbye for now.

i miss you............

summer    is

            finally

hereeeeeeeee

i wish this week would go by fast so i can see you!!...

but then rest of the weeks can go by as slow as they want to....

       my heart is very unsettled right now.

 i have been thinking and that's the best way i can explain it. i'm not sure where

 i'm supose to be in life right now.... i think God has been challenging me

 lately... and i'm never up for the task.. it's sad, i know...  but sometimes i really

try and fail.... maybe i try without actually thinking "this is for God, everythings

 for God"... do you think like that? i know majority of the time i do not. I know

every since about Febuaryish i have had in mind-"change"- i want to be a

 better person. or i want to be a different person. i want to worry more about the

important things. i want to be more secure. I have realized God doesnt like our

 comfort zones. the times when we think everything is okay, and we're not trying

our best to make a difference in this unGodly world... the times when i get

comfortable things get taken away.. and that really really reallyy scares

 me...............

this font is

 called

baby kruffy

anyways.. ...

ahaha

why is love so corny?

haha seriously.... people who have not felt that "have to be with or see this

person" make fun. but there are people in high school who say i love you blah

blah blah... but how many actually just say that just bc. i mean, i know i have.

haha...  i dont know...  i guess i have been in a relationship for quite a while,

and it certainly has had its ups and downs... but i have the BESST feeling

now... and i know everything happens for a reason.... i just hope i don't mess

this up again. and who knows.. maybe we won't be together

forevvveerrrrrrrrrr.... but as of right now i'm in love.

haha

sooooo i decided i wouldnt post another entry all summer..

 if i decide to write i'll do it on this one.....   get over it

: )

          byee...  

--mandy

There's no maybes about

LOVE.

 you just know

wanna know what i thinkkk

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hello.

wow, i remember when xanga was a big deal... and everyone callled it X-ANGA. haha... anyways.. i thought i'd write something like the old days.... which was like last year... haha....  but anyways...  no one will read this...

my life is moodier than it's ever been.. i feel bad for the people who put up with me. i hate how i feel about myself. is anyone else like that? like i wished i liked myself... not as in conceided (who the heck cares how to spell right now)...  i am not in a bad mood right now, just venting. i want to be close to friends and especially my bestest of all friend, God. yeah, he's prettyyy coool. I'd know!... but right now i dooo not know. i know God isnt like that, but if he were one of my earthly friends, i'm darn sure he wouldnt like me very much. i blow him off and all that bad stuff.. but i'm ready for change. Kara made a good point the other day. she told me when youre down, the only way to go now is up. well, guess what... meg just told me she has mono really bad, and i was around her like for the past 2 days. she said she cant go to school for the rest of the year! haha 4 days.. wow... anyways... yes she's lucky for that matter, but i hope you feel better meggie g i love you girl! mmk well i have to go to church, and bring my long lost cousin, Morgan.

bye i love you

--mandy

i admit it

I am not close to God anymore